Mental Note to Self (and others, if you will):
Nobody's going to force you to be positive. You can drown away in the negativity, just because asking yourself to have faith seems like the supreme cliche. It's always better to stay corny and happy, rather than staying intensely creative, for the lack of a better word, and intensely grumpy.
It's somehow all falling into place now. Not magically, though. I've been working towards it. So all the notions I had that someday I would get up and things would just start working for me, is utter nonsense. There always has been, and there always will be the need to get up and tackle all the bullshit upfront. And I did that. And I officially give myself immense credit for it.
I love myself the way I am. After breaking my head over the flaws I kept recognizing in myself, I realized that even though it's sad how I need to keep reinforcing to myself that I am in fact pretty great, it's a happy realization. Flaws and all, I thought, I need to know when to pat my back and when to criticize.
Faith. That's all it takes, and you know that whatever it is, a fault within yourself, and cluttered day/week or a negative itch on your back, will whiz past eventually.
I choose being corny. I love it :)