First thing's first... I don't title my posts because, there's never a particular topic that I'm writing about, so its really unfair for me to pin-point the subject of a particular post. Unless I mention about 5 subjects in the title and make it bigger than the acutal post.. but why'd I do that anyway.
I've been listening to Paolo Nutini (the guy who sung the Puma song- New Shoes, for the uninitiated) and I love his voice :D In, any case, I have a thing for english singers, esp men. But apart from him, I got introduced to Eva Cassidy. OMG. the.woman.is.fatastic.
No seriously, I absolutely cannot get enough of her! Listen to this, if you're in the mood for some goosebump-ish blues music. Its fab stuff.
Anyway, getting to the real reason for this post. I've realised how I'm a very moody person, and sometimes people take it in the wrong sense. I get dangerously nasty and bitchy. And it pisses me off even more when people try to find out reasons and take offence for my moods. And most of the times, this mood boils down to combine itself with other feelings. So I end up presuming a lot of stuff that I shouldn't, technically. Like for example, I kept thinking that I was average with literature, and I absolutely HATE being an average person, or average at something per se. Especially since I have carefully made choices to compliment myself. But over this past week, I have realized that I couldnt have been more thankful that I chose to be a literature student. I can't be more thankful to my fate. I love my course, a BIT too much :D
And although I might not take it up on an MA level, these three years of literature has moulded my life in a way i cannot articulate.
Secondly, my music interest. Music is me, and I'm about music. I love it to point of insanity. And to feel that I was average at that killed me inside. Though, time and again, this week I've been doing some good stuff, and my voice is improving. I'm still very amatuer, but there's something. i might complain, considering it is a part of me being moody and cynical, but there's nothing I would want to change about this year. I absolutely love how i feel about it. I love being in literature, in the choir, I love my class, I absolutely adore my friends (some piss me off, but the fault doesn't lie in them, but me), I worship my teachers, I love working in the newspaper, I love the work enviornment, I love what I did two nights ago and I love more the fact that there was no moral dilemma i faced (for regular readers, its related to magnetron :D but it has been taken extremely maturely by the both of us..), I love the fact that I'm single and most of all, I love being in my position. I need to work on a few things, but that will happen.
I know, just do.
p.s- I know this was fairly positive, but i needed this approach. Please please give Eva Cassidy a try. Esp Preeti, and esp not V :D