Saturday, May 26, 2007

So i finally broke the resolution i.e- profile only. Frankly i dont feel too bad about it. The only reason being i know im unaffected by it now. Seriously, ever since i went online and viewed a zillion other people make the same mistakes as i have, i realised the stupidity of the whole thing, and i wont say im over it becoz im not, but small things that once affected me, dont anymore. Like i did get nostalgic when we passed from barely 2 inches and i could smell the wonderful cologne which reminded me of one night, but i've learned to stay controlled with my emotions, i dont need to share this piece of info with everyone i know, yes a vent is necessary, but i dont get overexcited about it anymore. plus, the more time passes i realise that i've come up with a sure shot solution, and thank god i didnt give into to temptation of starting to talk again becoz this ignoring stuff really works, initially it was soo tough and sometimes now it still is whenever we come across each other and i get reminded of few things, but its not the same. and im so glad:)

So me n Aneesa talked after really long yest and we were discussing what we'd want in the perfect guy. yes, perfect is relative, but perfect according to oneself. And yes, call me stupid but i do believe that we all will come across someone someday who we think are perfect for us. It was great fun talking to her about that, and surprising we btoh found a guy who perfectly fitted the bill, but we dint want to make the effort right away, committment phobics we both are, thoroughly enjoying our single status. And i've realised that subsituting is the only way out and surprisingly and GLADLY, i no longer picture myself desiring to do certain things with *ahem* but more desiring for that day when i wont think of him and will be aware of his insignificance as an infactuation in my life!

anyway, Im totally for my mom's opinion that at this age we shouldnt be thinking about perfect matches ans just have some plain fun, and im going to make sure that my whole year is all about that. Yes, i made stupid mistakes in the past, but even though the thought of a relationship sounds good, im totally for my single status!!

All i need to get rid of is this curiousity.. and once the curiousity goes, pretty much most of it will vanish:)

I was just browsing thru a few blogs and i noticed how all the posts were surroundings-observant. Very few were about what happened during the course of the day. My point is how can u resist writing about ur day? Am i the narcissist here or is this truly weird?? i cant even imagine writing a full blog about observations i made during 5 months, like a 5000 word blog, Seriously who does that?? i mean from me, all i can extract is at the most 5 lines, and generally 3-4 paragraphs shud be good.
sigh, i guess its just me. I cant even write long blogs untill im totally in a chatty mood, like today. I have days where im too lazy to write anything at all, like yest.

Anyway, to the best part of the blog... Day 4- i dont remember what i had, but remember feeling guilty about something. i made up for it, perfectly healthy meals thruout the day and i even went to play badminton early in the morning today, extremly proud of myself:):)

"I remember when, I remember,
I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough I just knew too much
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy

copyright "Gnarls Barkley"