"Sing out, Sing out, Silence only eats us up inside"
Lifeboats, Snow Patrol.

I was telling a friend yesterday, that inspite of a fluctuating self esteem, most people end up knowing what they deserve- atleast at the age of 21. For all those people who follow my blog, (first of all, where art thou?) y'all should know that I don't title my blogs. But for the first time, I think I have a post that is uni-dimensional. Basic gist- I am tired of constantly proving my self worth.

And I know this is when the whole proving yourself begins, but I don't just mean this professionally. I mean in with regard to every sphere of my life. I was mentioning to the same friend yesterday how I am so petrified that I'll sell myself short sometime because I'll give up trying to find what I truly deserve.

My problem is, I am tired of telling myself to hang in there and wait for the right opportunities to march along because I most definitely deserve them. I'm not impatient, and I have gotten many opportunities but for some sorry-ass reason they just don't fit.

I am tired of being cryptic. Why must I constantly be pep-talking myself into believeing that the best is yet to come, inspite of a whole world of things that have already come and gone?
Why must I settle, compromise or adjust at all times?
It's time for me to be spoiled, ya hear me?
S.P.O.I.L.T R.O.T.T.E.N