How do I feel right now? I don't know really. I've just been let into a really.. weird piece of news. Which I frankly was better off not knowing. I can also safely say that about what was revealed to me last saturday.
Sigh. I'm tired. Not metaphorically wrt the eventful weekend and what followed but more so because I'm physically exerting myself too much. Anyway the main reason behind this post was to jot down the reasons why I need the upper hand back.

• Because I don't even feel requisitely.. I mean not enough. I might have put the impression across because I liked where things were going, the bitch that I am, and I know it's always easier to say this, But for once I actually mean it- In retrospect, I donot feel passionately about this. It was just a "oooh, fun, lets see where this heads" You're not supposed to feel like this about a thing that started off like that in the firts place, right?
• I'm perfectly happy with my life right now. The weekend was enough to pull me back into my senses, about how I am suited for the game :) I could do with theattention alright but not to point where I end up waiting for nothing really. I don't care about the reasons, the excuses blah blah. If it has to happen, it will. Why should I be focusing specifically on only that part of the day? I have a life. And a rather good one. I dont need more than one locii. Which right now is my internal exams in january.
• I heard nasty rumours :D :D I could believe them, but I don't want to. I'm not the kind. I dont have anything against the person, whatever the reason behind the negligence may be. I should just care this much. And my initial reaction was granted because it happens to everyone. But I guess from now on it's going to be different. I'm not spiteful or anything. Call ya msg aayega, toh I'll pick up and everything, I just won't wait.

Moral- I won't wait.

I won't.