Okay, I finally won. I don't know how I feel about it, really. I love the fact that I effortless went up on stage and performed, not sang, performed. And for the first time in my life, I got marks for stage presence. On the flipside, the acapella group performance was quite shitty. And i felt pointing fingers and going "I told you so"... but I love them all too much.
I love singing. I realized how much I love being on stage today, feeling the melody coming out of my mouth, and the notes sending shivers down my spine. I was quite moody today, haven't had much sleep. The oscillations have been constant (ooh, paradox!), and I'm rather okay with this. I have different versions of what i want, coming from far too many people, but that's okay. It gets to me sometimes that I get so close to something, and i feel good about it, but it almost invariably always remains incomplete. So I've realized that I will continue, untill I internally don't get the signal to stop.
P.s- have been meeting quite appropriate people. goooood conversations :)