Tuesday, June 10, 2008

What I wouldn't do to change this. Its very petty, but embarrassing nonetheless. I hate it! You know the feeling of inevitability plus the quality of blabbering nonsense put together? It sucks. I hate not being to be myself around new people who shouldn't and are not trying to make me feel nervous but I end up gettin nervous anyway and BLABBER.

I hate it when I blabber. I know I'm talking bullshit, but I say it anyway, FOR no reason. There is no reason why I blabber, but I blabber anyway. Like right now. Urgh.

Don't get me wrong Im in a fairly nice mood. Its just that I get easily nervous around new people, under professional or personal circumstances. And it sucks that this time it's profressional. I hate knowing that Im a different person but the people I blabber in front of are forming a totally different opinion of me because of my blabbering. I hate being thought of dumb, and obviously when I blabber, the person who's on the receiving end will think Im dumb, or I'm stoned or something.
I'm intellectually very capable and anti-drugs, thank you very much.

Okay, on a more positive note, Mum and Dad bought a new car. It looks great and finally we have a car with an Mp3 player! So that should something to gloat about for a while. I have to make sure I dont sound like a dumbfuck when I get another call in a minute or so. Plus, I have to make sure I don't get a writer's block once Im apointed some work. It always happens to me, and this time It'll be horrible to have a writer's block, especially when the only toher way I can prove to people who think I blabber is by writing quite well, and YES I'm capable of it.

Anyway. I'm going over to Best friend's place for 3 days tom. Infact we've like made a mini timetable sorta thingy:) Hoping to catch Sex and the city while Im there.
Urgh, If only I could get rid of the stupid blabbering habit. It happened with Vp and my first editor who called me, it happened throughout my thing with M, with Magnetmoron and now with this.

I should focus on maintaining a dignified silence when nervous instead of blabbering like a prick. I hate those eyes liek usually look at me whenever I blabber. Thankfully on the phone its just the tone. Eyes are pretty much worse.

Okay, I'm doing it again.
Going now, before it gets worse.

8 comments:

K.C. said...

Just stopping back by and thanks for the "happy birthday".

Your post made me laugh for it describes most people in the world. I can just picture you there actually acting fairly normal, but feeling like you are acting horrible. This post was so funny. I was smiling all the way through it. Your writing is so funny! KC

Zwinky said...

ooooooooooo. blabbering swetha is the best thing in thw whole wide world! because i get to look like the samrter one. HA HA.

who're you kidding dude, i blabber too. we all do.

just wait and watch. you'l find out that in DUB, blabbering is more than welcome,rather then just sitting there like a painting, having no clue as to whats happening and staring at people with your mouth open. also, youve heard the editor and how....it sounds like.....over the phone.ALSO, you're way better then most people who'l come tomorrow. believe me.

seya ma'am. i like :)
( no offence anukriti !)

Okie Dokie said...

Could we be more similar:). Honestly, I had the same foot in the mouth disease.

I wouldn't worry too much if I were you. Once you grow up and start living away from home you become more responsible/mature, and things become better.

So not to worry and not to call yourself dumbfuck:)

Preeti said...

U blabber too? U shud seriously meet my friends...they'd tell u...for once i dont shut up...next, when im in a situation wich is close to bein awkward or where im nervous...i blabber and blabber and blabber and blabber...especially like around a cute guy or something...

once my best friend...who happened to shape up into this amazingly cute hot guy came down from UK...and when i went to meet him (he came with his friend) i blabbered non-stop for 45 min juz cuz his friend asked me -"Do u think i shud get into business"..Im sure he regretted that for the rest of his life cuz i went on about break even point, cost analysis, loans and like 4-5 different ideas for business...this best friend guy knows me well enough and he knew i was nervous but he thought i had a crush on his friend and thats why i was blaberin! :-/

Smokin Joe said...

hahah yeah u do!.. so.. ;-) All this would mean that u can become an RJ anytime u want! gosh.. am so jealous@

Akshay said...

I need an mp3 player in my car.... and about blabbering.... well u shud meet some of the people I know.... that should change your opinion ....what the hell am I saying .... i don't know how much u blabber....

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