"I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive me crazy.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your horrible dressing sense,
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it...I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around;
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all."

this one's from the movie "10 things i hate about you".. it was a good movie, but this dialogue move me a lot. i was kinda worried about the whole, i'll never fall in love n the thing that happned with raghav will happen again phase, and im still not clear about it. but im fairly okay, considering i havent thought about it, n i generally dont think about it. that much evolution has happened.

i know it'll happen some day im just worried that even though that'll happen it'll take me a while to fall, FALL, for someone again. the thing with A is only there becoz he's ignoring me, not ebcoz i genuinely fell for him. i know that.

sigh, it is mighty pissing off anyway. im soooooooo irritated at him.
urgh i need to get laid.
i need attention from the opposite sex.
I NEED TO HAVE INTELLIGENT FLIRTING.

RAHUL doesnt count.
urgh.
i HATE this.