What is this urgency to achieve the intangible? It spells nothing but absurd, really. I should know better than that. There is something really wrong if I pep talk myself in first person.
This is a very interesting rut. I know exactly what the problem is. "It's not so much the person but you fighting to get want you want out of them."
Too many things piling on, you know. How do you deal with a string of contrasting situations? Some important, some not important. And then you give yourself a hard time about paying attention to the insignificant ones, and pay no heed to the situations that are demanding immediate attention.
I am aware. There is no action, but.
I can't seem to move out of it.