Have any of you ever given thought to the fact that you might be addicted to the internet?
One day without it and I got restless. My computer is screwed. Officially. Apparently I'm a victim of software counterfeiting (WTF) and my audio controls don't work. Okay, there's a reason for that. So, my net was being a real piss pot, like gmail wouldnt work at all, but facebook would. And I couldn't send any mails, but I could use gtalk, so I figured that was happening because there was low space in the memory... and err, I deleted things.. left right and centre. Turns out I deleted the audio control thingy. And now I can't listen to music, which sucks because I have so many more songs on my PC than on the MP3.
Okay, my editor just pointed out that I was being whiny... which is fine because I'm a whiny person. That's almost always the way I start a conversation with someone. Actually, that's how I make the conversation last with someone. I end up bonding with people because they whine about the same things. That's something, huh?
You know, in retrospect, I know it was worse, and I'm so much more better at dealing with sucky stuff been thrown at your way. In school, i was referred to as the "whine queen". And now, I'm considered the calm one. Okay, I will admitt, I'm like more "calm now, whiny/moody again".. but it has become better, and I can feel it.
Okay, I know for a fact that I'm a good listener, and maybe because I'm a certain way, I can't figure out why people hold on to trivial little things.. like forever. I remember, one best friend told me somebody called her a bitch way back in the 11th grade, for no reason, apparently. And she's still not over it. I mean, I know sometimes you can't, but comparitively, I really don't hold on to things. Like I will REMEMBER trivial things, but I will remember that I was pissed off about it at a particular time, but I don't stay pissed for long.. just as easily as I get pissed. I get pissed, not angry. I've never been angry. Really! I've never been so angry at someone that I would scream at them. The most, I can get pissed off, and leave the place or keep the phone or something. But I've never lost my temper enough to lose my mind. Easy come, easy go.. I'd say.
Was talking to *wishes to remain anonymous* on the phone... (she's not told me she wants to be anonymous, but I'm presuming she will, considering what I have to say), and we've realised that the more patronizing a guy is, the more we want to do them. Like... do them. And I would use more describing/appropriate words for it, only I'm too lazy to say "bugger off" to all the gasps that'll come my way.
Today's the last day of my vacation. My results are out in a week.
Again, life sucks.