Weak
Easily intimidated
Seasonally judgmental
Selfish
incapable of being Righteous
Easily swayed
Over-analytical
Confused
Indecisive
Presumptuous
Negative

I wonder how many more relationships will slip away from my hands before I can officially call this a crisis?

You can never say "I am sorry, I didn't mean to do this" with enough conviction. How do you put it into words convincingly enough for the other person to understand?

I've been impulsive and selfish yet again. I wish I could articulate that I'm not a bad person and I'm just a bit immature, incapable of making wise decisions at the right time?

My solution?
I won't be impulsive in the future.

I was better off not being responsible for another person's feelings.

I'm not fit for relationships. And I am trying to say this with the least amount of self pity. I mean every word.

No more. No more of this.

But I thought when we heard the blues, and smoked on my terrace we were creating memories? Memories that you would miss eventually, maybe?
I have been accused of exaggerating a connection a little bit, only because I tend to get too involved. But are you telling me that those memories we had for over 8 months don't come back to you every now and then?

I don't speak from a lovesick viewpoint. I am talking about a pure connections. About having a good time, with a special friend. It's not too great when what you perceive as special seems a bit evaporated, especially when it seems like you're the only one who holds those memories at a treasured place.

I might not be able to make those memories again, maybe a part of my faith in friendship has gone. But to have some parts cut out with a knife, and not even thrown away, but placed in front of nonchalance, can be a bit hurtful.

Is friendship a figment of my imagination?