Tuesday, May 13, 2008

They loved the presents :) Although, there's more, and Im looking forward to strawberry's party!

Just signed in because I realised something. I really really like Magnetron. No matter what people say. Its not working out, I know, but minus his obvious flaws that effect me, I do think he's perfect for me. Don't raise eyebrows, Strawberry and Pugsie. Ignore this please, I'll be fine in a while.

I wish he's see though, and he'd stop looking at me as a backup. I've always had this problem with men. Hence the high standards.. I have a huge issue with hypocrites who bed hop OR want to, but have this huge list of things they'd want perfectly intact in their future girlfriend. Or any guy who pass unnecessary jugdements on the basis of gender. Magnetron is not like that. Okay, I know Im like all gushing over him, but I like certain things about him that nobody can understand. I'm sick of spelling them out. Infact, he asked me for my blog address, which is why I changed my name, incase he googled it.

Its so complicated because I don't want anything to happen considering why he talks to me in the first place... acha, fuck it. He's a horny 21 year old basically, what would you expect? Im sick of being the girl who the guys flirt with. And yes, Magnetron in my back up, but he's perfect because he knows that. He knows the situation and why I talk to him, and suitably responds. I'll never let him see it though, And Im hoping this will die down in a while, infact I think I like someone else, but its not that big, I dont know him at all. We've met through very weird circumstances.

Plus I keep comparing everyone to Magnetron. I guess what I told Dance baby is right. Im like scarlett, and only a Rhett can truly accept me for who I am. I can allure anyone, I can get anyone to like me, But it'll be very short lived.
Sigh.

8 comments:

--xh-- said...

man, i love all teh names you use - pugsie, megatron and all teh wrks :-D

Anonymous said...

Seems like the backup thingy is mutual! :)

Anonymous said...

Hmm.. all this is too complicated.

I am sure I am not this complicated. So we are not that similar.

-Ok

S said...

Xh: Haha, its not megatron its MAGNETron. But i love the typo, it kinda fits :D

Wickedturus: Yeah, but its dangerous wehn you end up falling for your back ups also :|

OK: Awww, Im heartbroken.
yeah, but jokes apart, It IS complicated. Very much.

Dr.Lecter said...

Most men bed hop when they get a chance. ALL men want to. Does that make every man a hypocrite?

S said...

Exactly what I said in the blog no? There are very few men who bed hop and don't pass judgements on women who bed hop. Thats my issue.

Almost every man WILL make a judgement on a woman who bed hops and is very liberal with her sexuality. Admitt it, most will call her "easy", without realising that they don't have the right to say it if they're doing the same thing.

At the end of the day, it IS very hard to find someone who will not mae that kind of a judgement.

Samster said...

i believe i might be too happy to think about the magnetrons (think daffy) of the world...
what works to clear ur mind is surviving on soup till 7 pm while working on articles for a legit reason...and then munching on a 'veggie delight'..
just thought u could try it...:D

Samster said...

im still awake so i re-read some stuff...i guess only ur R type would refrain from passing judgment...i dont think either rex or daffy or D or well, anyone else i know could stop themselves...one time that i hope im wrong...
lala..but even if im not...well, the world wont come to an end..:)