Blogger can be really pissing off sometimes. I just wrote a nice post and it got deleted for osme wird reason. So me and Pugsie had a very eye-opening discussion in her car that day. Somehow you alreayd know thiese things and yet you need these "discussions" to realize them. Im trying to give this closure and move on. My heart has accepted the fact that Im single, totally, free i dont know, but very much open to more adventure ;) i know he was kinda very desirable, had the right mix of exactly what i wanted but Im sure i derserve all that and more.
Okay, just for fun Im going to make alist of 10 things i'd like in a guy!

10 things i'd look out for:

1. The voice! and even better if he sings. But yes, if the voice is good, i mean base-y, and one which makes you feel amazing while on the phone, then Im a goner! Kinda soothing, smooth, husky but not girly.... seductive definitely!
2. Ability to flirt. You know, the ability to say the right thing at the right time, and have a nice heart to only say them when he means it, and know that unnecesary flirting is never appreciated. What i mean is, i wouldnt appreciate someone who gets tongue tied when he sees a girl. But isnt a perv or a horny Arse who does it with every second girl.
3. Somebody who respects the fact that i can get extremely moody, and can snap and can be a mean bitch and not take it in the wrong sense, because i wouldnt. Im somebody who can keep up with a person being moody, and i would really appreciate it if the guy im interested in were the same. Which only means he should be interested in me enough, not marriage interested but "wow, she's something, i never want to let go fo her!" interested.
4. Somebody whose not cliched but knows that some things need to be done. Need to take the pace slow, first win the trust, not be the quintessential good guy, but not be an asshole either, make you live on the edge but give you enough reassurance to know its not the end everytime. Make you wait, but not too much, and make you feel smart and good about yourself!
5. A momma's boy, but not too much. You know, someone whose lived with women in the house, enough to know how a woman's mind works.
6. Someone whose street smart. Who knows what to do when, where and how. Someone who knows what to do in an eve-teasing situation, not to get into a fight but smartly put a point across and worm your way outta it. Someone who knows how much to bargain, and when to splurge.
7. Someone whose so comfortable with himself and is so amiable that he can sit and talk in a room filled with Aunties. Basically somebody who is grounded.
8. Someone who knows when to treat a girl specially and when to let her be. Who doesnt always demand to pay for the girl, and is comfortable enough to willingly accept either going dutch or her paying because he payed the last time.
9. Somebody who can cry when he has to and not be judgemental when it comes to women.
10. Lastly- somebody who can help me define who i am.

Ive never been able to do that before with any guy. And i know I have so many expectations, now the next r'ship i get into will have to be close to this, or it'll just remain a fling. I know what i want now. I've been through some loosers who were desirable, some nice guys who werent desirable, and Ive learnt to make another mistake. :) Dont feel depressingly single anymore, and Im waiting... its a hard long wait, i know, sometimes it makes me feel useless and worthless, but i know it'll come. I can feel it. I have the image in my head, i can what its going to be like, and thats why everytime i fall, i stand back up because i know ITS there. :)